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whattingawhat) wrote2008-04-21 10:13 pm
whattingawhat) wrote2008-04-21 10:13 pm
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But I can't pretend that this is the way it'll stay I'm just [Trying to bend the truth]
[Locked from Danny and Anna]
Deceit
It’s kind of driving her crazy and at the same time she is terrified of ‘coming clean’. Deceit is necessary and exhausting. She goes out every night for Chinese or pizza, insisting she’d rather pick it up herself than have it delivered. She goes out for coffee, hot chocolate and to get some air and she never, ever, ever wants company. Stakes are tucked into her bag along with makeup, alcohol swabs and a little mirror. She tries to avoid getting hit in the face because slayers do bruise; they break and they bleed. She can hide almost everything else under long sleeves and jeans but bruises to her jaw and her lips require a stop by the gas station bathroom. She was a makeup artist long before she started deceiving him.
She continues without fail but every day there are little moments, voices that whisper to tell him and screams that hold her back. She’s not sure when the right moment will be and some part of her is afraid it will never come. He says the sweetest things and promises her she can stay in his life but she can’t help but think he wouldn’t say those things, if he knew. He’s falling in like with a person that doesn’t exist and that worries her because she’s falling into like with one that does.
He’s an investigator and she knows one of these days he’ll investigate because that’s what he does. He’ll find out and she won’t be able to apologize for the lie because she’s not sorry. If she got to redo the entire relationship over again, she would without any regrets. They’ve never really looked good on her, regret. It just makes her broody and she knows a couple people that do broody so much better than she does. So for now she’ll lie, she’ll go get hot chocolate, coffee, Chinese, pizza and air. She’ll insist that she needs the time alone and she’ll come home with her alibi, set it on the table and try to cover her guilt with affection. She’s soaking him up while she can because she knows one of these days he’ll know and no matter what he decides, he’ll never look at her the same way again.
Deceit
It’s kind of driving her crazy and at the same time she is terrified of ‘coming clean’. Deceit is necessary and exhausting. She goes out every night for Chinese or pizza, insisting she’d rather pick it up herself than have it delivered. She goes out for coffee, hot chocolate and to get some air and she never, ever, ever wants company. Stakes are tucked into her bag along with makeup, alcohol swabs and a little mirror. She tries to avoid getting hit in the face because slayers do bruise; they break and they bleed. She can hide almost everything else under long sleeves and jeans but bruises to her jaw and her lips require a stop by the gas station bathroom. She was a makeup artist long before she started deceiving him.
She continues without fail but every day there are little moments, voices that whisper to tell him and screams that hold her back. She’s not sure when the right moment will be and some part of her is afraid it will never come. He says the sweetest things and promises her she can stay in his life but she can’t help but think he wouldn’t say those things, if he knew. He’s falling in like with a person that doesn’t exist and that worries her because she’s falling into like with one that does.
He’s an investigator and she knows one of these days he’ll investigate because that’s what he does. He’ll find out and she won’t be able to apologize for the lie because she’s not sorry. If she got to redo the entire relationship over again, she would without any regrets. They’ve never really looked good on her, regret. It just makes her broody and she knows a couple people that do broody so much better than she does. So for now she’ll lie, she’ll go get hot chocolate, coffee, Chinese, pizza and air. She’ll insist that she needs the time alone and she’ll come home with her alibi, set it on the table and try to cover her guilt with affection. She’s soaking him up while she can because she knows one of these days he’ll know and no matter what he decides, he’ll never look at her the same way again.
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Bri (Aka Mun of AWESOME): ;O;
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...My muse is a dork. But poor Buffy. I just wanna squish her.
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he's rightHee! Thank you! Squishes, totally appreciated too. She'll be fine. She always is. Buffy is like a cat that lands on her feet and bounces back.
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:D Anna's the same way. In the words of Phelps (from the upcoming storyline-closer post that will make Danny very upset) "Why won't you just die?"
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lol! Poor Anna and Buffy says HEY! No making Danny upset or I will have to kick someone's ass in a major way. Of course from what I've read/know of Phelps he needs to just die. Buffy thinks maybe slipping his address to a vamp wouldn't be wrong. I mean if the idiot invites the guy in...