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whattingawhat) wrote2008-06-04 06:10 pm
whattingawhat) wrote2008-06-04 06:10 pm
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I'm not crazy [I know right now you can't tell]
["This is the kind of thing you need to take seriously."]
This is set between the movie and the series. It is mentioned in s6 in an episode called Normal Again that Buffy spent a couple of weeks in a mental institution right after burning down her high school gym. How bad it was or what happened is left up to the viewer. This is a little more violent than I thought it would be but then Buffy never has done anything peacefully. All quotes are from the movie Buffy the Vampire Slayer which I pick and choose from to add to My Buffy's canon
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Her head hits the wall in a rhythmic pattern. It follows the beat of her heart and the way her fingers pick at the sleeve of her gown. She’s medicated but not enough to make to knock her out, just enough that she doesn’t care.
The doctor she’s dubbed ‘Fake Smile’ comes into her room and crouches on the floor in front of her. “Wouldn’t you like to move to the bed? It’s much more comfortable.”
She stops thumping her head against the wall, her fingers stop picking and she glares at him. He actually flinches a little under the weight of that glare.
“Last time I sat on the bed you tied me up then you got mad when I broke your restraints and hit the orderly.”
“You broke his nose, Buffy.”
“He was trying to stick a needle in me.”
Fake Smile sighs, the toothpaste ad grin slipping as he sits down on the floor in front of her. “How do you feel today, Buffy?”
She sighs and rolls her eyes toward the ceiling. “Can you just not?”
“Not what?” he asks, appearing to be truly confused by her request. She thinks he can’t be this deeply stupid. He has a degree in something. Several probably.
“Repeat my name. Over and over. I’m not a dog, it’s not soothing and it makes me want to strangle you.”
“Buffy, you can’t make threats like that,” the doctor warns her as he scribbles something in her chart.
“It’s not a threat and-“ she trails off and looks to the other side of the room, tears forming in her eyes. “Just let me out of here. I want to see my Mom and I want to see my friends.”
“You burned down a high school gym. There were bodies in there. Bodies of your friends.”
“I didn’t kill them,” she says, her voice falling to a whisper.
“We know that, Buffy. That’s not why you’re here.”
“The gym was-it was an accident.” She swallows hard, choking back tears because she won’t cry for Fake Smile. He might consider it a break through or a confession and decide she needs more medication.
“I believe you, Buffy. You’re not here because of what you did. You’re here because your parents are concerned about your mental state.”
“You believe me about the gym and that I didn’t kill my friends but you don’t believe that the gym was full of vampires.” Her voice is trembling a little now and the tears are back in her eyes.
“Vampires don’t exist, Buffy. They’re figments of our imaginations perpetrated by movies, TV and books.”
“I watched Merrick DIE because he didn’t want to-“ She stops, biting her tongue and shakes her head. “They’re real and I’m the slayer. Chalk your broken restraints up to age and wear and mice if you want but tie me up again and I will break them again. Stick a needle in me and I’ll do more than break your nose. I’m stronger than you, faster than you and if I wanted out of here-“
“I just want you to be healthy, Buffy. Your parents want you to be healthy.”
She can’t help the explosion of anger that rises up in her and spills out. “NO! YOU want me to be normal. You want me to skirt around certain subjects the way my Mom skirts around the fact that my dad is cheating on her. THEY want me to be the girl I was before, the girl that doesn’t cause problems, doesn’t break curfew and is so self absorbed it makes me want to throw up.” She didn’t mean to hit him. She didn’t mean to hurt him but her hands are flying out and thank God she just caught him with the heel of her hand, barely brushing his chin but even that was hard enough to knock him down.
“OH God.” The words tumble out of her mouth as the tears fall over her lashes. The doctor calls for security and this time they brought back up. She fights because she doesn’t want to be tied up, she doesn’t want to be vulnerable and she doesn’t want them to stick her with a needle, sending her down into a darkness that she can’t fight her way out of.
Before it’s all said and done, her elbow breaks a nose, her foot some toes and the overall struggle, someone’s ribs but the needle slides into her skin, they hold her tight as she struggles, already medicated and losing the battle to the sedative in the syringe. She finally goes limp and the hustle her into a straight jacket, buckles pulled tight.
It only takes her a week to realize if she’ll just lie, if she’ll just stop talking about vampires, they won’t tie her up, they won’t stick her with needles and they won’t put her in a straight jacket. She has a feeling that lying is going to become very easy one of these days.
This is set between the movie and the series. It is mentioned in s6 in an episode called Normal Again that Buffy spent a couple of weeks in a mental institution right after burning down her high school gym. How bad it was or what happened is left up to the viewer. This is a little more violent than I thought it would be but then Buffy never has done anything peacefully. All quotes are from the movie Buffy the Vampire Slayer which I pick and choose from to add to My Buffy's canon
thump
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Her head hits the wall in a rhythmic pattern. It follows the beat of her heart and the way her fingers pick at the sleeve of her gown. She’s medicated but not enough to make to knock her out, just enough that she doesn’t care.
I've searched the entire world for
you, Buffy.
The doctor she’s dubbed ‘Fake Smile’ comes into her room and crouches on the floor in front of her. “Wouldn’t you like to move to the bed? It’s much more comfortable.”
She stops thumping her head against the wall, her fingers stop picking and she glares at him. He actually flinches a little under the weight of that glare.
“Last time I sat on the bed you tied me up then you got mad when I broke your restraints and hit the orderly.”
“You broke his nose, Buffy.”
“He was trying to stick a needle in me.”
Fake Smile sighs, the toothpaste ad grin slipping as he sits down on the floor in front of her. “How do you feel today, Buffy?”
She sighs and rolls her eyes toward the ceiling. “Can you just not?”
“Not what?” he asks, appearing to be truly confused by her request. She thinks he can’t be this deeply stupid. He has a degree in something. Several probably.
“Repeat my name. Over and over. I’m not a dog, it’s not soothing and it makes me want to strangle you.”
“Buffy, you can’t make threats like that,” the doctor warns her as he scribbles something in her chart.
“It’s not a threat and-“ she trails off and looks to the other side of the room, tears forming in her eyes. “Just let me out of here. I want to see my Mom and I want to see my friends.”
“You burned down a high school gym. There were bodies in there. Bodies of your friends.”
“I didn’t kill them,” she says, her voice falling to a whisper.
“We know that, Buffy. That’s not why you’re here.”
“The gym was-it was an accident.” She swallows hard, choking back tears because she won’t cry for Fake Smile. He might consider it a break through or a confession and decide she needs more medication.
“I believe you, Buffy. You’re not here because of what you did. You’re here because your parents are concerned about your mental state.”
I don't want to be the chosen one, okay? I don't want to spend the rest of my life chasing after vampires! I just want to graduate from high school, go to Europe, marry Charlie Sheen and die. It may not sound too exciting to a sconehead like you, but I think it's swell. And then you come along... and... and then I'm a member of the hairy mole club, so you throw things at me!
“You believe me about the gym and that I didn’t kill my friends but you don’t believe that the gym was full of vampires.” Her voice is trembling a little now and the tears are back in her eyes.
“Vampires don’t exist, Buffy. They’re figments of our imaginations perpetrated by movies, TV and books.”
“I watched Merrick DIE because he didn’t want to-“ She stops, biting her tongue and shakes her head. “They’re real and I’m the slayer. Chalk your broken restraints up to age and wear and mice if you want but tie me up again and I will break them again. Stick a needle in me and I’ll do more than break your nose. I’m stronger than you, faster than you and if I wanted out of here-“
“I just want you to be healthy, Buffy. Your parents want you to be healthy.”
She can’t help the explosion of anger that rises up in her and spills out. “NO! YOU want me to be normal. You want me to skirt around certain subjects the way my Mom skirts around the fact that my dad is cheating on her. THEY want me to be the girl I was before, the girl that doesn’t cause problems, doesn’t break curfew and is so self absorbed it makes me want to throw up.” She didn’t mean to hit him. She didn’t mean to hurt him but her hands are flying out and thank God she just caught him with the heel of her hand, barely brushing his chin but even that was hard enough to knock him down.
“OH God.” The words tumble out of her mouth as the tears fall over her lashes. The doctor calls for security and this time they brought back up. She fights because she doesn’t want to be tied up, she doesn’t want to be vulnerable and she doesn’t want them to stick her with a needle, sending her down into a darkness that she can’t fight her way out of.
Before it’s all said and done, her elbow breaks a nose, her foot some toes and the overall struggle, someone’s ribs but the needle slides into her skin, they hold her tight as she struggles, already medicated and losing the battle to the sedative in the syringe. She finally goes limp and the hustle her into a straight jacket, buckles pulled tight.
It only takes her a week to realize if she’ll just lie, if she’ll just stop talking about vampires, they won’t tie her up, they won’t stick her with needles and they won’t put her in a straight jacket. She has a feeling that lying is going to become very easy one of these days.
Go to school tomorrow. Try to act normal. Don't let anyone know what's happening. This is important. When the vampires find out who you are... you won't be hunting them anymore.
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