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Her day had been awful. She'd spent the whole day snapping at her classes. Some of the boys had been understanding and others had been just little crapheads. She'd responded in kind by being bitchy. Frappachinos had been mainlined because she hadn't gotten any sleep the past two nights and she felt like she was jumping out of her skin. Danny had kissed her when he'd left that morning but he hadn't slipped in the shower with her, which was how they usually started their morning out. In the end she just went straight home after work, took a bubble bath, drank a glass of wine and tried to unwind. It didn't really work, there was too much on her mind and too much on her shoulders. She got out of the bath, tossed on a wife beater, a pair of shorts and stabbed a chopstick through her damp hair. She put her ipod on her Boy Bands playlist (N'Sync was good, thank you very much) and decided to try some Tai Chi. It couldn't hurt and it might center her enough that she could deal with everything and even help Danny deal. The wooden floor was cool and hard beneath her bare feet so she focused on that as she went through the Tai Chi motions in an attempt to lose herself. Every once in a while she'd glance at the clock -defeating the purpose- knowing Danny would be home in a little while, barring any complications at work.

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Buffy watched him for a moment and then nodded. She pulled her bottom lip between her teeth. Men left her because of this. Men that were supposed to stay like her father. Angel and Riley had only reinforced that belief. Finally she uncurled from the couch and walked over to lean against the wall beside Danny. She had her beer in one hand and her shoulder wasn't quite brushing his arm but she was standing close.

"As long as you feel that way, your brain can be as slow as it wants. And it's definitely a roller coaster but those are fun if you just let go, put your hands up in the air and scream."

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"You mean if I let it be this could be fun? All of this? The new stuff too?" Danny asked, casting a sideways glance in her direction.

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"In a way," Buffy answered. "It's always going to be a little scary and it's always going to be a source of worry and sometimes it won't be fun. At all. But the thing is, I've spent years fighting it and trying to push it away and benormal. I finally figured out, I can't fight it. This is what I am and when I'm out there fighting...it is fun. I love what I do. Yeah there are times it sucks out loud. Pun so not intended."

She glanced over at Danny and grinned a little. "Plus, and here's the fun part for you, when I go out slaying...I get this whole...afterwards it's what I call the H factor. It makes me hungry and horny and since I come home to you at night..." she trailed off with a shrug.