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[whattingawhat]

Her day had been awful. She'd spent the whole day snapping at her classes. Some of the boys had been understanding and others had been just little crapheads. She'd responded in kind by being bitchy. Frappachinos had been mainlined because she hadn't gotten any sleep the past two nights and she felt like she was jumping out of her skin. Danny had kissed her when he'd left that morning but he hadn't slipped in the shower with her, which was how they usually started their morning out. In the end she just went straight home after work, took a bubble bath, drank a glass of wine and tried to unwind. It didn't really work, there was too much on her mind and too much on her shoulders. She got out of the bath, tossed on a wife beater, a pair of shorts and stabbed a chopstick through her damp hair. She put her ipod on her Boy Bands playlist (N'Sync was good, thank you very much) and decided to try some Tai Chi. It couldn't hurt and it might center her enough that she could deal with everything and even help Danny deal. The wooden floor was cool and hard beneath her bare feet so she focused on that as she went through the Tai Chi motions in an attempt to lose herself. Every once in a while she'd glance at the clock -defeating the purpose- knowing Danny would be home in a little while, barring any complications at work.

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Danny listened, brow furrowing more and more as he heard what she was saying. "This is crazy."

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"Yeah...it is," Buffy agreed. "It's my life though and I can't back out of it. For the record, I think you're handling it like a champ. I threw a huge fit, acted like I was three, cried and threw things."

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"Really? Cause I kinda feel like I'm flubbin' it all up. Worried about sayin' anything cause I don't wanna lose you." Danny answered quickly.

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"OK, let's get one thing straight. The only way you're going to lose me over this is if you tell me to get out. I know this is so screwed up and so weird and out of the ordinary. I used to have a normal life so I get it. I'd really like it if you didn't call me a freak or a killer because...I've got some issues with that but pretty much anything else you need to say, you can say it. I can't think of any question you can ask that would upset me. It's more...your opinion of me changing that I'm worried about," Buffy told him.

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"Who's callin' you a freak or a killer?" Danny asked curiously. "You think I would call you that?"

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"No. I don't. At all," Buffy said quickly. "it's just this is mind blowing to you and..." she trailed off and shook her head. "I dated this guy, Riley, he knew about this world and he knew about this life but he was still...human. And he had issues with me being stronger than him. He had issues with a lot of things about my past and he was pretty clear on how screwed up he though I was.And out of the people who know what a slayer is, there's kind of split. Some people think we're nothing but super powered killers. Anyway, I just don't want your opinion of me to change. You make me feel like I'm amazing. Me. Not slayer me, just me and hey if you get to a point where you think slayer me is awesome, that's great but I don't want it to change that you think girl me is amazing."

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"I've always thought you were pretty damn perfect. And I've never had a problem with you kickin' my ass." Danny reasoned. "I'm not givin' up on you. I want you. And I kno all of this is true. It's just crazy to me right now. I'll get there, Summers. I'll get there."

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"Hey, that's good enough for me," Buffy smiled at him. She leaned in and kissed him again, letting it linger for a moment this time. When the kiss broke she looked up at him. "For the record, you're a pretty damn perfect boyfriend. So thanks...for the dealing with all of this and for letting me know that even though it's screwed up and crazy, you still like me."

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Danny returned the kiss again, leaning into it to make it linger a bit longer. "So I'm doin' kinda okay?"

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"You're doing more than kinda okay," she reassured him. "You're doing amazing. I'm sorry I lied for so long. I just...really expected you to walk away and from the very beginning I liked you too much to let that happen. I didn't want to be all here's me, here's my shoes and here's my destiny. I'm really glad I don't have to lie anymore though. I hated it and I always tried to tell you as much of the truth as I could without completely spilling it all."

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"So I guess... I guess we'll slowly go through the lies and figure 'em out." Slowly because if it all came rushing down on him he wasn't sure how he would handle it.

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Buffy nodded. "As slow as you need to. If you have a question, ask. Like I said, there's really not anything you can ask that's going to offend me or hurt me or bother me. I'm not going anywhere and I've got all the time in the world to explain things to you at your pace."

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"Who helps you? I mean... it can't just be you. There's a whole world and we're in New York." Buffy said. "So who helps you?"

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"For a while it was just me. There's a whole...mythology that goes with it. One girl in all the world blah blah blah. I changed that and I made it hundreds of girls. The school in Scotland, is all slayers and I'm kind of...the head slayer. Baileigh, the girl I talk to online, she's a slayer," Buffy told him.

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"All Slayers..." Danny nodded slightly. "Yeah... so when you went away that was like... some Slayer conference not to get a certification?" He sipped at his beer.

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"Uhm...that was..." she bit her bottom lip and pulled it through her teeth then took a sip of her beer. "Take a deep breath and brace yourself. That was a war. I don't just fight vampires. Sometimes the vampires or demons or...monsters I fight get ambitious. A demon named Lilith got ambitious and decided she wanted to try and open the gates of Hell and take over the world. There were a bunch of people there. Other slayers, hunters...people who fight these things. My job doesn't care if I'm certified. I'm good and the kids like me."