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[whattingawhat]

So...he found out and he didn't kick me to the curb but he's freaking out. Which is totally understandable. I went through the freak out too. Things are just...kind of...weird right now.

I guess I'm kind of worried this isn't the end of it and he could still say 'you know I can't handle this. You've gotta go'

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[deep-red-bells.livejournal.com]

Fuck. Okay. Can you walk me through things? Like...what exactly did he say?

[whattingawhat.livejournal.com]

Okay, so night before last we had this fight. Sort of fight. He thought I was cheating on him. I thought okay, appeal to the scientist in him, getting him asking questions and get him wanting to know answers, right? So I gave him my blood. Told him to follow the evidence, figure out where it took him. I guess the problem with that was I had no idea what my blood would look like. Just that it'd be human but different. Tara's words were 'like a bad sunburn'. Apparently my white count is through the ceiling. Like outnumbering the red blood cells. So he decides I have Cancer. Way to go making things WORSE Buff.

That leads to more not!fighting and night before last I dusted the ring leader of a little vamp gang, so I had to go slay. I waited until he was asleep, got up and went slaying. He followed me.

I had everything under control. 3 vamps and their dinner was on her way home at top running speed. Then he white knights (which is sweet. He saw one of them head butt me and went all grr!boy. Only grr in the human sense not the vamp sense) and one of the grabbed him by the throat and he's fine minus some bruises but yeah...he saw me dust three vamps.

There was lots of 'this is crazy and lots of repeating the word vampires over and over' Lots of pacing and smoking (which he does in any circumstance. I think it's part of the whole figuring things out thing) I asked him if he wanted me to go and he said no.

So it looks good? Potentially but there's still a lot of freaking out.

[deep-red-bells.livejournal.com]

WOW. Okay. Wow. That's. Wow. So not how I would've chosen for a boy to find out, but, at the same time, well, seeing is believing. I mean...he's not mad at you. Right? He's just freaking out and trying to process which, hell, anyone would be. I mean hell, I freaked out at first. I freaked out HARD.

[whattingawhat.livejournal.com]

At the same time, I don't know how else I would have had him find out. Minus the Cancer. See this is the problem with dating real boys. And explaining to Riley was different. He knew about it all. He just thought I was all myth-y instead of real.

He's not mad at all. He asked me if I'd be home later. I said yes, gave him some time and later when I went home I got into bed and he held me and things were...awkward and not exactly alright but not world endy either?And there was no sex which I know is TMI but it's WEIRD for us

[deep-red-bells.livejournal.com]

Oh no, I totally get the weird of the no sex.

It's going to be okay. I mean, no hiding now, right? He just needs time to accept and deal, and...don't let him try to brush it aside, you know? I don't know if he would but if he loves you, he needs to deal with and accept this.

[whattingawhat.livejournal.com]

But the holding was good.

Right and the no hiding will be good. I won't have to make up lies about patrol and stuff like that. He needs time to deal and he needs time to process everything. I don't think he'll be all brushy (of course I didn't think he'd deal this well either)I agree with you though. He loves me and he's dropped some pretty strong hints about wanting to spend the rest of his life with me (not in a marriage way. In a the way we are right now way)If he's still got those plans, he has to accept and deal with this.

[deep-red-bells.livejournal.com]

Let me know how it goes, okay? Keep me in the loop. And let me know if I need to book an emergency flight up to New York, okay?

[whattingawhat.livejournal.com]

Definitely with the loop keeping and thank you. I appreciate it. In a serious way.