whattingawhat | [Locked to Bee & Pyro]

Fuck. Okay. Can you walk me through things? Like...what exactly did he say?

Okay, so night before last we had this fight. Sort of fight. He thought I was cheating on him. I thought okay, appeal to the scientist in him, getting him asking questions and get him wanting to know answers, right? So I gave him my blood. Told him to follow the evidence, figure out where it took him. I guess the problem with that was I had no idea what my blood would look like. Just that it'd be human but different. Tara's words were 'like a bad sunburn'. Apparently my white count is through the ceiling. Like outnumbering the red blood cells. So he decides I have Cancer. Way to go making things WORSE Buff.

That leads to more not!fighting and night before last I dusted the ring leader of a little vamp gang, so I had to go slay. I waited until he was asleep, got up and went slaying. He followed me.

I had everything under control. 3 vamps and their dinner was on her way home at top running speed. Then he white knights (which is sweet. He saw one of them head butt me and went all grr!boy. Only grr in the human sense not the vamp sense) and one of the grabbed him by the throat and he's fine minus some bruises but yeah...he saw me dust three vamps.

There was lots of 'this is crazy and lots of repeating the word vampires over and over' Lots of pacing and smoking (which he does in any circumstance. I think it's part of the whole figuring things out thing) I asked him if he wanted me to go and he said no.

So it looks good? Potentially but there's still a lot of freaking out.

WOW. Okay. Wow. That's. Wow. So not how I would've chosen for a boy to find out, but, at the same time, well, seeing is believing. I mean...he's not mad at you. Right? He's just freaking out and trying to process which, hell, anyone would be. I mean hell, I freaked out at first. I freaked out HARD.

At the same time, I don't know how else I would have had him find out. Minus the Cancer. See this is the problem with dating real boys. And explaining to Riley was different. He knew about it all. He just thought I was all myth-y instead of real.

He's not mad at all. He asked me if I'd be home later. I said yes, gave him some time and later when I went home I got into bed and he held me and things were...awkward and not exactly alright but not world endy either?~~And there was no sex which I know is TMI but it's WEIRD for us~~

Oh no, I totally get the weird of the no sex.

It's going to be okay. I mean, no hiding now, right? He just needs time to accept and deal, and...don't let him try to brush it aside, you know? I don't know if he would but if he loves you, he needs to deal with and accept this.

But the holding was good.

Right and the no hiding will be good. I won't have to make up lies about patrol and stuff like that. He needs time to deal and he needs time to process everything. I don't think he'll be all brushy (of course I didn't think he'd deal this well either)I agree with you though. He loves me and he's dropped some pretty strong hints about wanting to spend the rest of his life with me (not in a marriage way. In a the way we are right now way)If he's still got those plans, he has to accept and deal with this.

Let me know how it goes, okay? Keep me in the loop. And let me know if I need to book an emergency flight up to New York, okay?

Definitely with the loop keeping and thank you. I appreciate it. In a serious way.

Would've gotten to this earlier if I hadn't been stuck in some friggin' godforsaken place without internet fucking connection.

What do you mean by he found out? He found out or you told him and he found out? I haven't checked through any of my emails or any other posts you might have made, but this caught my attention.

Hope you're okay. Hope Danny's doing okay. Hope everything is okay. If not, trust me, Buffy, it will be.

I figured you were on the job. That sucks.

He found out. He thought I was cheating on him at first and then I gave him some of my blood to look at and he though I had Cancer and then I think he thought I was cheating on him with a Cancer doctor...or something. Anyway, he followed me one night on patrol. I was dusting three vamps and one of them headbutted me. He came out of hiding, white knighted and end up pinned to a brick wall by his throat. Rule number something or the other in Buffy law, you don't hurt my boyfriend. Vampy was dust and he couldn't deny what was right in front of his face.

Anyway, things are...awkward right now but okay. He's dealing a little at a time, asking questions slowly and he keeps telling me that he wants me around and he still loves me. He's racking up brownie points for that alone. I don't even think slayer me bothers him, it's all the weird that goes with it. Like vampires, demons and zombies. Oh My.

Thanks for being worried about me! It makes me all smiles.

Yeah. Been kinda fucking busy.

Wait. Why the hell did you give him some of your blood to look at?

Good thing you're not pissed that he followed you. But hey, I would've done the same thing if I noticed my girlfriend leaving the bed after midnight on an almost daily basis.

Glad to hear that things are okay though. And yeah, figured he'd be a little weirded out about that whole vampire, demons shit. Gonna add in the fact that aside from all that, you're also friends with mutants and a host of other freaks? *smirk* Kidding. Dude probably has enough to deal with as it is.

So this is good news.

You're okay though, right? Don't make me come kick your ass for getting hurt.

Because Danny's a scientist. He needs to want to know what's going on and he needs to be the one asking questions. Otherwise he's not going to believe what I'm telling him. Slayer blood looks a-ok normal. My blood however...after I came back from the whole being dead thing, I thought something was wrong with me. Primarily because I was sleeping with Spike and the things I let him do to me. Anyway, I had someone look at my blood for me. She said there was nothing wrong me but my dna looked like a bad sunburn. I had no idea what that meant except that it looked different from any other human's. Apparently it means it looks like I have cancer. mostly I wanted to give him some kind of hard evidence that wasn't a vampire dusting to get him thinking. It worked...he just thought I had cancer for a few hours.

Nah I wanted him to have some questions and I knew following me was a possibility. I'm just glad he didn't get really hurt.

Yeah I haven't actually told him that my best friend in New York is a mutant yet. It's not because I don't want to tell him about your a complete freak ;). I'm just trying to introduce it all a little slow. He does this thing where he asks a few questions, gets the answers, mulls over it for a little while and then says 'okay tell me something normal'. He has no issues with the me part of the equation. I told him how strong I was. It's the whole world I bring with me that he's coping with slowly. Of course I haven't really told him how easy I could break him in so any words but I think I'll save that for never.

This is very good news.

No, nothing like that. I'm good.

You must have scared him with that. Don't ever get cancer for real, alright? Or I'll have to kick your ass.

Danny okay with you going on your nightly patrols?

Well, I'm pretty sure he'll figure out just how strong you are soon enough. But at least by then, hopefully he'll be all sorts of used to the strange and the bizarre. He might even get turned on by the fact. *smirk*

Fucking awesome. But did you tell him about Angel yet?

Okay. Just checking.

No getting cancer for real. I'm not sure my immune system would let me. The only time I've ever been sick post slayer was when I had the flu. And at the time I was deal with Angel being Angelus and being the reason he was evil and my friends getting murdered and getting no sleep because he was stalking me at night AND working myself up to kill him. It was a lot to deal with on no sleep, no food (because I stress and the first thing I do is stop eating) Apparently my body decided to put me down the only way it knew how.

He worries and used to, he'd just go to sleep. Now that he knows what I'm doing and that it's dangerous, he doesn't sleep until I get home but he's okay with it. He knows it's what I have to do and that I'm saving people.

Let's hope so. Because that'd be kind of awesome.

OH you are so funny. That would be a fat NO. We're still doing slow and Angel is a big thing to drop on anyone. I will tell him. I just don't think now is the right time. He's actually talked to Angel very briefly online.

Yeah. Really wouldn't want to get my ass kicked. *smirk*

Angel being Angelus? And good to know you don't get sick very often. You're pretty lucky like that. My immune system's gone haywire ever since I spent half a year in prison. Last night, I had an encounter with a mutant called Iceman, and thanks to my being in somewhat close proximity to the asshole, I've now got that stupid fucking cold to deal with.

Good to know. And I guess you can schedule your patrols for sometime before midnight on certain days now that you no longer need to sneak out after he's gone to bed and all that.

He did? So who does he think Angel is?

That's a good boy.

Angelus is Angel without a soul. He's evil and psychotic and twisted. Also totally obsessed with me. For the first 150 years he was a vampire he didn't have a soul. Gypsies cursed him with one when he killed their favorite daughter. They were sloppy though and left a loophole. He experiences a moment of perfect happiness and the soul goes away. We found out on my 17th birthday exactly what equated perfect happiness for Angel.

I'm getting you some OJ and grapefruit juice to bring over too.

Yeah it's a huge relief to not be lying all the time.

He did. He knows he used to be my boyfriend. And he knows he was an important boyfriend that hurt me a lot. He just doesn't know Angel is a vampire and...all the complexities that are Angel and me.

That kinda sucks. He sounds like this dude I know. Jackie Estacado. He can't ever fuck a girl because if he gets them pregnant, he'll end up dead once the child is born, so he's not willing to risk it, even with condoms and shit. That's just screwed up.

OJ would be fucking awesome. I've basically run out. Think it's possible for a person to OD on OJ?

So what does Angel do for a "living"? He's gotta be able to support himself if he's living in the city, right?

I think Angel can have sex, just not with me. Or just not with me then. I was perfect happiness. I've never discussed it with him because that's just awkward and I don't know how I'd feel about it either way. It is pretty screwed up though.

I don't think so. I'll bring lots of OJ. Mom always said it was good for you and it's soluble or something. Anyway you need more of it every day. You don't store it like calcium.

He's a private investigator specializing in the paranormal. Basically if you've got a problem with something supernatural you go to him.

You mentioned you had to kill him?

Yeah Angelus opened a portal to suck the world into Hell. We were doing a whole movie sword fight that in retrospect would have been really cool if things had turned out any different. Anyway, while I was trying to keep Angelus occupied and sword fighting him, Willow was busy trying to put his soul back in (I didn't KNOW this at the time because Xander is a tool who hates Angel. I'm pretty sure I would have figured a way to keep him from doing the portal thing of doom if I'd known, anyway) I finally disarm him, get him on his knees and I'm ready to behead him when Willow's spell kicks in. It's Angel and he's confused and he doesn't remember why he's there (it's a thing. Eventually all the memories catch up to him but at first when the soul gets back in the body, confusion) And this portal is growing behind him and the only thing that will close it is the blood that opened it (Angel's). So I kissed him, I told him I loved him and I sent him to Hell for a century (time is wacky in Hell) I quit, went to LA for the summer, worked in a diner under the name of Anne. Finally came back. Angel came back a few weeks later. We worked things out (for a while) minus the touchy.

Yeah, like two seconds in Hell is like a lifetime or some shit. That's fucking nuts.

Seriously so. I spent like one day in a hell dimension before I broke out and like two weeks had sped right by. I guess it's part of the torture? IDK

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