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whattingawhat) wrote2008-10-22 03:13 pm
whattingawhat) wrote2008-10-22 03:13 pm
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It's when you try to have everything [And then it all goes up in the smoke ]
[Discuss the possibility of having a family with your partner someday]
Yeah, I think about it. Who wouldn’t? I love Danny and I don’t plan on ever leaving him. He’s my ‘for the rest of my life’ guy so naturally I think about things like marriage and kids and moving to Staten Island so we can have a house with a yard and a picket fence. The thing is, do you know what I think when I see picket fences? Little stakes all in a row. I see a stockpile of weapons and that’s why the whole idea of family comes to a screeching halt.
I kill things for a living. That’s not exactly nurturing. My first thought on how to solve a problem is to hit it until it goes away. And let’s just assume I did get pregnant. Have you got any idea what a can of worms that is opening up? All slayers are targets. Fact of life that no one is ever going to be able to change. However, I’ve sort of got a bigger target painted on me. Make me vulnerable and the entire demon world would come out to play. I’d have to move in with a slayer or two. That would turn me and Danny’s lives entirely upside down. Once the baby is born, he or she’s a target. Dawn has been used against me too many times for me to believe that my child wouldn’t be used against me. I don’t know if I could do that to a little innocent person.
All of that aside, do I want it? Sometimes, yeah but I try not to want things that I know I can’t have. It’s frustrating and in my life I don’t need things to be frustrated about.
Yeah, I think about it. Who wouldn’t? I love Danny and I don’t plan on ever leaving him. He’s my ‘for the rest of my life’ guy so naturally I think about things like marriage and kids and moving to Staten Island so we can have a house with a yard and a picket fence. The thing is, do you know what I think when I see picket fences? Little stakes all in a row. I see a stockpile of weapons and that’s why the whole idea of family comes to a screeching halt.
I kill things for a living. That’s not exactly nurturing. My first thought on how to solve a problem is to hit it until it goes away. And let’s just assume I did get pregnant. Have you got any idea what a can of worms that is opening up? All slayers are targets. Fact of life that no one is ever going to be able to change. However, I’ve sort of got a bigger target painted on me. Make me vulnerable and the entire demon world would come out to play. I’d have to move in with a slayer or two. That would turn me and Danny’s lives entirely upside down. Once the baby is born, he or she’s a target. Dawn has been used against me too many times for me to believe that my child wouldn’t be used against me. I don’t know if I could do that to a little innocent person.
All of that aside, do I want it? Sometimes, yeah but I try not to want things that I know I can’t have. It’s frustrating and in my life I don’t need things to be frustrated about.