whattingawhat | We went for something bigger

We got the best.

I think we did pretty damn good. He likes you more than me but that's okay. I'm still in the 'I might break him' stage.

You're makin' it up in your head, Summers. When you're ready, he'll be ready. I promise. No way he can't adore you.

He's just so little! And breakable!

And lovable! Just like you... well, the little and lovable part. You can kick my ass.

Yeah well...don't let it bother you. I can kick most people's asses.

You're pretty awesome, Boyfriend.

Could you hear the high-pitched squealing noise I just made all the way in New York?

So that's what Rocky was barking at. *grin* He's adorable isn't he?

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And you should have seen me freaking out when we were picking him out. I'm so freaking admitting commitment phobic. As long as we dance around it and don't talk about it, I'm good. You start talking about commitment and I freak out. So I was all !!! it's like a relationship commitment. We're getting a dog together and if he kicks me out I have to leave the dog too and !!! and it's like a kid. Yeah...he handled my wigging like a pro though. It just doesn't bother him.

I want to pet his furry head and coo at him, yes I do.

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AWWWWWWWWWW!! OMG, I never even, like, related that in my head. Dog = commitment, so true. WOW. But, hey, you got the dog and made it home so all is good, yes?

He's sweet too. He's pretty quiet and he doesn't lick much. He just sits there and looks at you with these big eyes when you pet him. He buries his head in Danny's chest when he's holding him but he's not quite that comfortable with me. I think it's because he knows I'm kind of scared of him.

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Really? Maybe I'm overthinking it then. I mean my first thought was dog=commitment. At least if it's our dog. If it's his dog...well then it's his dog but he was pretty specific that he wanted it to be ours. Am I over thinking it?

Yeah we got the dog and we're home and it's good.

I so can't wait to meet him! He sounds precious! Animals usually like me for some reason? So do kids. It puzzles me.

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I don't know? I mean...no, I totally don't know, I've never been in that situation with a guy before, but I can see where you're coming from. It is kinda like an adopted kid in a way.

I can't wait for you to meet him either! When are you going to be here? Animals are usually very wary of me, as are kids. Probably a very good reason for that. Rocky is cautious but friendly enough toward me.

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I don't know. I'm trying not to over think it and just go with it. I think we're getting close to a point where I'm going to have to tell him or he's going to start asking or something but I'm also getting to a point where I think it might actually be okay?

I have no idea...I didn't think Boy would get to stay as long as he has. I figured, you know, he'd have to work. But he's here, he's taking time just to be with me, and I figured I'd wait until he absolutely had to leave before I booked my flight.

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You think it might be okay?! REALLY?! That's GREAT!

Oh no I don't blame you at all. Stay there as long as he can stay. I'm going to be in NYC for a long time and you can visit me anytime you want.

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Well...I've already pretty much convinced him that I can kick his ass on fighting ability alone and he's super okay with that. I mean...it doesn't make the whole vampires are real situation any easier to explain or the whole 'I sorta saved the world...a dozen times' any easier or...any number of other things that go along with the 'hey I'm a slayer' topic but it gives me some hope that he won't have a problem with me being stronger than him or...everyone else.

It's not like a sure sure thing. It's just a hope that wasn't there. Before, I was certain that when he found out, he'd ask me to leave.

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I think I'm starting to fall for him, Buffy. Seriously fall. I'm scared and I want my abuelita SO BADLY and I don't even know how to handle it.

Well, you could ease him into it? Try not to hit him with too many things at once? Like, 'okay, there's vampires. And I slay them.' Wait til he's digested that before you mention all the...other stuff?

I think--and I don't know because I don't KNOW him, this is just conjecture on my part from the things I've heard about him from you--that maybe you're not giving him enough credit? I think he's pretty crazy about you, Buffy. And by pretty crazy I mean really crazy.

Oh Sweetie! I am so not your grandma but I am here if you need to talk. Falling is scary and...I've only really done it I guess twice now and one is an in progress kind of thing. I don't know what to tell you. I do know that as much as it hurts and scary as it is, I would do it all over again. Both times. And that's knowing about the epic pain that was Angel.

Oh it's definitely an 'in stages' issue. And there are some things about it he just doesn't need to know. Plenty of digesting time for him in between the stages and like I said, some of it, I'm content to let him just not know.

He is and that gives me the whole guilt thing again. Because I think...you know he's falling in love with this normal girl that just doesn't exist. At the same time, I'm still being Buffy, I'm just being careful. The only thing that will change about him knowing is the carefulness and the lying. I hope I'm not giving him enough credit. I'd love for him to surprise me.

Dude looks cute.

He's pretty freaking adorable.

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So from a guy's pov, I'm meeting parents. This is a pretty big deal, yeah? Or no? Okay...wait, your parents are dead so lie to me, tell me it's NO big deal and I should just fucking relax, meet the parents and be normal.

Does he drool all over your carpet?

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Just don't do anything Gaylord 'Greg' Focker did and you'll be fine. Honestly, I'd be pretty fucking nervous but I'm a guy. I think you girls tend to impress parents pretty easily so just be yourself? First time meeting them?

Nah he's too little for that. There's no drooling. Thank God.

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LOL that was a hilarious movie though. Check. No doing things the Focker way. I'm crazy nervous. Pyro, think about who you're talking to. Danny's dad is 'Godfather' in my head. Being myself is NOT an option. That was one of the rules Danny gave me. No calling his Dad Godfather to his face. Yeah, first time meeting them.

I hate it when dogs do that. I'd like to get a wolf hybrid but I'm not sure if it's a good idea or not. I'm hardly at home but I could bring him to the base, I guess... Still. It's bound to drool all over the damn place.

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Maybe just smile and nod a lot? Wait, no. That would be a bad idea. They'd probably think of you as the typical dumb blonde if you do that but you don't want to be too mouthy either... Jeez. Why the fuck is he asking you do this? It's fucking torture.

... I'm not helping, am I?

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You could check into it, see if they drooled a lot. Some big dogs don't. Wolf hybrid would be cool.

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*grin* Really not. I think it's a whole rite of passage in a relationship. It's like a show of faith maybe? Like I like you enough to think you're going to be in my life so I'm going to introduce you to my family. Which I'm glad it's to that point but at the same time...I've been tortured. I think this is worse.

I'm just going to try to be a very good Buffy on my best behavior.

Yeah. I'll see about that. I'm actually not too fond of animals but I just think it'd be cool to own a giant dog. Which is not a good reason to get one.

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I know you're going to be nervous and all but since his mom's a good cook then the one thing you should do is eat, eat and eat and compliment her cooking. Sucking up is all important except yeah, don't fucking overdo it.

And don't say the F word.

All in all, I don't think you have much to worry about. Unless you subscribe to some weird religion or something, I'm pretty sure they'll like you enough to want to adopt you before dessert arrives.

Also, I'll pray for you. And I'm atheist but it's the thought that counts, right?

It's kinda not. Maybe you should just visit wolf hybrids?

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Good advice. I especially like the part about not saying the F word. *grin* Corrupter. I'll probably gain ten pounds from the one dinner alone.

Nah no religion at all. Which could be a problem. They're Catholic. I'm yay higher power (actually I bitch at them on a pretty regular basis) but religion is freaky girl. I'm just going to NOT mention God or religion at all and LIE if it comes up. I've just got to keep the word vomit under control. People ask if I go to church and I say yes and then the word vomit kicks in and before I know it I'm talking about ripping a crucifix off the wall and shoving it in a vampires pants. I think I'm gonna xnay the caffeine tomorrow. That'll help. And aww thank you about the them wanting to adopt me thing. You're awesome.

Yeah it's the thought that counts! And thanks. I appreciate it.

That's lame. I'd be known as the freak who comes to play with the wolf hybrids every once in a while.

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No more saying the F word for today just in case you fucking say it by fucking accident tomorrow and create a fucking disaster in front of his fucking parents. Okay?

And yeah, bullshitting is completely necessary at this point. Don't worry, we're all going to hell anyways.