These are the answers to the numbers and the meme that can be found
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Where do you live now, and with whom? Describe the place and the person/people.I live in New York City, Upper East Side with my boyfriend, Danny and our dog, Rocky. It’s kind of a smallish apartment but not claustrophobic. We’ve got hardwood floors and the couch is super comfy. You kind of just sink into it. We use the weapons chest that Xander made me for a coffee table and my shoes for decorations. They’re very pretty shoes. There’s a punching bag that hangs in the kitchen doorway. You kind of have to dodge it to go into the kitchen. There’s one bedroom, one bath with a shower and tub. I like that I can stop up the overfill drain and sink all the way down to my chin. There’s a little balcony that we spend a lot of time on. There’s a comfy little outdoor sofa there but a lot of times we sit on the concrete.
Danny is a CSI detective with the NYPD. I guess he’s kind of short for a guy, like 5’8 but then I’m 5’3 so I’m really not qualified to judge. He’s pretty muscled, great arms and shoulders. Seriously. Sometimes he’s kind of scruffy in that sexy almost bad boy way. He smokes when he’s stressed out and he’s got this really sexy New York accent. He’s really sweet and kind, generous and funny. He doesn’t think he’s patient but I think he’s got loads of it. I’ll stop there ‘cause I could go on and on.
Rocky is this little, scruffy dog that I swear looks like Danny when he wakes up in the morning. He and I are getting used to each other. He still kind of looks at me skeptically when Danny’s not there and I’m still a little afraid I’m going to break him.
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What is your earliest memory?Funniest thing, my earliest memory isn’t even real. Sometimes I wonder if I used to have an earlier memory and somehow when the monks messed with my memory to make Dawn real, they accidently erased things. Anyway, my earliest memory is the day Mom and Dad brought Dawn home from the hospital. I hated the idea of her so much. I wanted to be the only girl and then Mom told me that I had to take care her and love her and be a big helper. That was it for me, I was sunk. I had this little, bitty, life that I was responsible for and that I
needed to take care of. Maybe that was the monks manipulating me but it doesn’t matter because it’s real to me now and I still feel that way about Dawnie.
20. While growing up, did you have any role models? If so, describe them
I always wanted to be a superhero when I was little (prophetic much?) so I loved Wonder Woman and the Power Rangers were big then. I liked the pink power ranger. There weren’t a lot of girl superheros then so I kind of made up my own sometimes too. This sounds kind of bad and if Mom were still alive I think I’d have to explain more but I never really wanted to be Mom growing up. I loved her and I thought she was a great Mom but I wanted something…I don’t know…more exciting than art gallery employee and Mom. In fact, I never really wanted to be anyone real.
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As a child, what did you want to be when you grew up?Kind of already answered this one. Super hero. It never really waivered until I got to be a teenager. Then I wanted to be a personal shopper, move to Europe and marry Charlie Sheen (I was 15! You have to excuse my crappy taste. )
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As a child, were you popular? Who were your friends, and what were they like?Yeah. I was pretty popular. I was always the leader and the one who got everyone together. I was the captain of the cheerleading team in highschool and a whole lot more shallow than I am now.
My friends were cheerleaders and pre-cheerleaders. They were shallow, pretty and popular. I didn’t get layers until after I became a slayer.
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What is your greatest regret?This is such a long list but a lot of them I couldn’t actually do anything about so I’ll go with something I could have. I would have never told Willow that she pulled me out of Heaven. She didn’t need to know that and telling didn’t make me feel any better.
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What is the most embarrassing thing ever to happen to you?This could be such a long list. Apparently I’m very listy. I’m going with the time I got voo-doo’d and threw a cheerleader across the gym. It was pretty embarrassing.
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What is your worst memory?Walking into the living room to find Mom’s body on the couch. That one doesn’t need qualifying.
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Are you basically optimistic or pessimistic?I think in general I’m pretty optimistic.
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What do you believe makes a successful life?I think it’s different for everyone. There’s not one single thing that equals success. For me…I want to make to 30. I want to be happy, love and be loved but more than anything I want Dawnie happy. I want her life to be everything that it should be, everything she wants it to be.
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How honest are you about your thoughts and feelings (i.e. do you hide your true self from others, and in what way)?It depends on my mood, what’s going on…that sort of thing. Sometimes I hide everything and close up but that’s usually when I’m trying to be denial girl myself. In general, I think I’m fairly upfront.
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Do you have any biases or prejudices?Are you kidding? I’m like open mind girl. I dated two vampires, my best friend is a badass wicca and I’m friends with two werewolves. I’m whatever non judgey girl.
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Is there anything you absolutely refuse to do under any circumstances? Why do you refuse to do it?Blech. I hate this question mostly because the world isn’t black and white. It’s full of grays and you can’t accurately predict all the circumstances or how your actions would affect your circumstances or the situation or you or the people around you. I think it’s safe to say that in
most circumstances, I would refuse to take a strictly human life (and by that I mean someone that’s just human. Slayers, demons, vampires, wiccas, etc etc not included) I’ve had some chances to kill ‘just humans’ and I had to draw line.
As for why I refuse to do it, there are lines you can’t cross and particularly for me there are lines I can’t cross. I’m a slayer and if I take one human life for any reason than that sets up a precedent and excuse to take another. Also? I’m supposed to be a role model for all the mini-me’s. We don’t need a lot of slayers running around thinking they can exact human justice. That’s what cops, lawyers and judges are for. We take care of the things that fall out of that jurisdiction.
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Do you have a spouse or significant other? If so, describe this person.Already did this but I’ll cp my response here: Danny is a CSI detective with the NYPD. I guess he’s kind of short for a guy, like 5’8 but then I’m 5’3 so I’m really not qualified to judge. He’s pretty muscled, great arms and shoulders. Seriously. Sometimes he’s kind of scruffy in that sexy almost bad boy way. He smokes when he’s stressed out and he’s got this really sexy New York accent. He’s really sweet and kind, generous and funny. He doesn’t think he’s patient but I think he’s got loads of it. I’ll stop there ‘cause I could go on and on.
Danny is my boyfriend. I live with him and we’re very serious. If I were to get married and do the whole ‘normal’ girl thing, it would be with him.
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Who is the person you despise the most, and why?Despise is a really strong word and I don’t really despise anyone. I usually despise things and then I kill those things. I guess if I hate a person it’d be the guy that put Louie in a coma. I’d come really, really, really close to violating that thing I’d never do if I met him. And yeah I know that’s pot and kettle but Faith woke up and in my defense she was sorta evil the time and really skanky. She got better. We’re friends-ish now.
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Do you tend to take on leadership roles in social situations?God yes, I’m a control freak.
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What is your most treasured possession?My scythe. I guess technically it belongs to The Slayer but since there’s lots of us now, I’m keeping it until I die and then if Willow doesn’t bring me back, Faith gets it. I’ll decide who gets it if Faith bites it.
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What, if anything, shocks or offends you?I’m not sure that much really shocks or offends me but it pisses me off when people underestimate me (or others) or chauvinistic assholes. I’m not all boo men and I like being treated like a girl but don’t dare treat me like I can’t take care of myself. I can take care of me, you and the whole world if need be. Most of the time when Angel and I come to blows nowadays it’s because he acts like this is my first apocalypse.
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Are you spontaneous, or do you always need to have a plan?I know this is kind of at odds with the control freak thing but I’m pretty spontaneous in life and work both. If it’s a big hoodoo apocalypse I want a plan but that’s just because plans save lives. In general I just kind of go with whatever. It keeps every day stuff interesting.
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What are your pet peeves?People who act like victims. Weakness, underestimating others, people who make decisions for others, cowardice, chauvinism. People who insist on maintaining denial. Bullies.
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What is your greatest strength as a person?I’m stubborn. I don’t quit, sometimes even when I should. I keep pushing and pushing until I get it done. Quitting just isn’t an option. Ever.
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What is your greatest weakness?The people I love. They can be strengths but they can also be my biggest weakness. I started refusing to give up the people I love when I jumped through that portal for Dawn. There’s very little I won’t do for the people I love.
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What goal do you most want to accomplish in your lifetime?I want everyone I love to be safe and happy and I want to be finished.
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If you could choose, how would you want to die?Blaze of glory. Doing something that matters; saving the world.
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